Dating…I do, but I don’t

Dating had always been a fun experience for me. The whole ritual of getting dress, dinner meals, pretty flowers and the opportunity to sit down with a guy just for the sole purpose of getting to know each other, was exciting to me. But today, after years of focusing on my daughter and her needs, I find dating to be quite intimidating and to be frank, quite tiresome. Though in my mind, I believe that it would be EXCITING to dress up and spend an evening with a nice guy, I then start thinking of what this all really entails.

For one, I have to actually find something to wear. Let me repeat, I have to actually find something to wrap around this body mine. Something that will make me feel pumped for the date and invincible, because at 33 and after one child, my energies are quite depleted. I find that though I want to head out there into the dating world, and I want it to be as fun as it once was, I am not interested in all the little things that really get in the way of my purpose for dating; to find the right person and get married.

At this point in my life, I don’t want to hide the things that are not so pretty, I don’t want to pull out the spanx or pick at my food and take dainty bites. I don’t want to talk about the weather and I certaintly don’t care discuss the statuses on any sports team. I want to have an honest conversation about life, politics and religion. I need “him” to know that I enjoy food (and at times break out a little tune of happiness), that I am curvy for a reason. I want to discuss his standing on faith and his relationship with God. I want to find out if he has a career or a job, and I need him to understand that I have an opinion on just about everything. Most of all I need “him” to know that I have a daughter and my WORLD.

This doesn’t mean that I don’t want the pleasantries that come with dating, but I mean –  can we be real and honest?

Anyone out there feel the same? Anyone with experiences to share?






Running…I Call Thee Nemesis


So here’s the skinny, I just had a birthday and though I am happy and blessed to have  another year, I am feeling disappointed with my health all around. I know that something needs to change, and I want to start thirty-three with good healthy habits. I have already started eating better, and being a weekday vegan (we’ll touch base on another post) has made drastic improvements in my health and how I feel. But, I know that I need to include more physical activity in my life and my goal this year is to conquer running outside. Well.. conquer running.

Okay, the news of the hour (not  much news to those who know me), I HATE running. I hate all of it! I hate the sweating profusely and the being out of breath. I hate, and I can vouch for all plus size girls out there, knowing that as I am attempting to run, my body is moving in all sorts of directions. That alone is reason enough to break out in sweat. BUT, I have decided, for the sake of my health, to ignore all these reasons (some might call excuses..but whatever!) to run. My first step towards this goal is to learn how to run.

captureThere is this cool app called C25K and its meant to get you from being a “couch potato” to running a 5k. This is all supposed to happen within six weeks. I have heard great things about it and so I am hopeful and excited to begin. I’ll keep you posted on my progress, wish me luck!!

Click on the image to check put the app.


Anyone else building a better “YOU”? Any tips? Please share.